The number 24 has been raging in my head over the holidays. The 24th month of being barren people and baby-less. Once you get that number in your head it’s hard to make it disappear. Then I thought, ‘this is the mother-lovin’ advent calendar of infertility!’ I laughed to myself how dark this was, and how some of the best moments with my husband are those very dark humorous jokes about how depressed, sad, and messed up we are. And some of the worst are when we have to quietly sit at parties, knowing I just got my period, or quietly watch pregnancy announcements happen. The social stigma of infertility and just plain being in it and feeling like a failure has sucked the fun out of infertility! Essentially talking>being quiet about infertility (most days). I would like to put the #funbackininfertility . Without any adieu, here is my advent calendar of infertility! (On a side please laugh and enjoy the read.)
January: Honeymoon baby- let’s do it!
February: I'm sure it doesn’t happen at the first try, plus so much rum on honeymoon baby try.
March: Downloads the Ovia App.
April: A birthday baby would be nice!
May: Buy ovulation sticks for first time. $$
June: Finally looks up what BBT and TTC mean.
July: look online for help support groups, but ensure yourself you won’t need them.
August: The first time you hear a pregnancy announcement and you have all the feels.
September: Researches the entire internet.
October: Secretly spend $60 on pregnancy tests.
November: First Gyno Appointment.
December: LATE PERIOD. CHRISTMAS BABY?? Nope.
January: First true breakdown.
February: Second Gyno Appointment
March: Vow to not buy pregnancy tests any more.
April: Spend $40 on pregnancy tests.
May: Take an honest break for a little.
June: Referral to specialist
July: Take a soul searching vacation.
August: Breakdown with a friend.
September: Argue with your partner about absolutely nothing.
October: Work on your marriage,because you can get through this together.
November: talk to someone else going through infertility and be amazed how good you feel.
December: CHRISTMAS BABY THE SEQUEL??? Nope.
Why write something about myself when I can give testimonials!